Over the years we now recognize when our sweet Posy feels vulnerable. She goes and sits half way up the stairs, pokes hers head through the banisters and surveys the goings on below; at a safe distance. If family life gets too hectic or we have visitors, there she will sit. Slightly worried and slightly blurred, oops.
I too am slightly worried at the moment. Worry is something I do too much of and although I try my best not to, silly thoughts creep into my head. You see at the beginning of January, Anth and I will be going to New Zealand, without the children. Now, I know that we are very fortunate to have the opportunity and my beloved husband sacrifices so much to live in the UK, but I'm still feeling wobbly about leaving my children for 3 weeks and being half a world away from them. I'm scared too about the flying. 24 hours on a plane and then whilst we're in NZ a few internal flights thrown in as well. How do I feel about that, well in 4 words I can sum it up..we've updating our wills. I have flown many times before so it isn't fear of the unknown; our last long haul flight back to NZ was in 2002 (we went for the first time as a family) was quite hilarious; I dined out on that story for weeks after - especially the sniffer dog!
But joking aside, I am trying to prepare the house as my mother and Robin will be staying here with the children. I am trying to write some notes about boilers, logs, plumbers, sheds, loft access, rubbish collections, children routines, packed lunches, cat food etc.. We are so, so grateful to them for having the children. Anth's parents will be celebrating their 60th Wedding Anniversary, his brother will have a big birthday and our niece will have her 1st - so there will be parties galore. It means so much to Anth that I go with him this time and I'm trying not to let my fears spoil his excitement but they are slowly creeping up on me..it's the saying goodbye to them all, that, even now makes my eyes shiny.
So yesterday (and today I hope) I went to my 'safe' place, like Po, and sat behind my sewing machine. There is Christmas and New Year to get through before our trip so I'm pushing my fears to the back of my mind and cracking on with my Wildflower Lavender Bags. These should be ready in day or two. Thank you, as always, for all your emails and comments...would you be surprised if I told you that I have saved nearly every kind email I have received? No? Good, at least we're not strangers anymore. Enjoy your Friday.
