AAAAAHHHHHH.......!!! I'm feeling so low today. I'm trying my very best to be positive and patient but if truth be told I could just burst into tears right this very minute. Maybe it's not a good idea to blog when one is feeling sorry for themselves. But, gee whiz (one of my most favourite sayings you may have noticed!) I seem to be feeling worse this week than I did last week. When is this ever going to end???
I hate to complain when I know things could be so much worse in so many ways but I feel so helpless. I have not the inclination to do anything - even read now. I think to myself, oh I will sit downstairs, buggie in (another of my favourite sayings that means cozy in) light a fire watch TV/listen to my beloved radio/try and crochet/revel in this enforced rest..but it doesn't work. Nothing appeals.
The house is neglected, the rubbish bin needs emptying and Anth has walked mud all through the house which I can't face even trying to hoover up.
DEEP BREATH....On a more positive note I have had a lovely bunch of flowers from school, in their own water no less (the really posh hand tied ones that have cellophane round the stems with water in. I've never had flowers with their own water before!) and the postman sometimes brings me get well wishes sent from sweet thoughtful ladies. I so appreciate that. Goodness, I will be in danger of tearing up again!
I just love the bar of chocolate in the picture. Thank you Kathy. I couldn't dream of eating it when it states such an important mantra. I keep it close by to remind me. I had another blood test today and I see the doctor on Friday. I thought I was going to be OK to go back to school next week (oh I miss my babies) but I beginning to doubt I can and that doesn't make me feel good.
Anyway, enough of my whinging. I'll make a cup of tea that should cheer me and I might even put some Coldplay on. A touch of Chris always makes a difference.... thank you for being a shoulder xxxx